I’ve been forced to take care of my sibling who has a history of drug abuse, alcoholism, stealing, lying, manipulating, and hasn’t held down a job in 10 years. They recently had a health scare and have been relearning how to walk. Well now they are refusing to go to physical therapy. they are depressed but they won’t get help. they are letting us wait on them hand and foot and we are all exhausted. i already have to take care of one of my grandparents too. I have found myself having the thought ‘i wish they would die’. then they wouldnt be suffering and I wouldnt have to have the responsibility.i don’t really want them dead. it would break my heart and would hurt so many people. but im just so tired and i feel stretched so thin. we are too poor to hire someone to help them. there is no money, no medicare or medicaid, no insurance, nothing. if I and my elderly parent dont step in and help there is no one to help them. and they have a child, so if we abandon them we abandon the child. its an awful situation and i have had thoughts of wishing to die myself. to escape. to rest. but if I do then who will help my elderly parent with my sibling? i hate this. i hate it all. there is no light at the end of the tunnel.