Charlie. The truth is, I might have once been deserving of your love. Your patience. Your inimitable, strange brand of affection. My world is gray now,

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Charlie.
The truth is, I might have once been deserving of your love. Your patience. Your inimitable, strange brand of affection.

My world is gray now, without the blue of your hair and the brown of your eyes.

Hot-tempered baker. Creepy artist of the highest degree.
Angel of s** and monster movies and cigarette smoke and zero-sugar soda.

I miss you. I’ll always miss you. I’m sorry.
Your forgiveness would mean the world to me, but I know I don’t deserve it. I deserve to live in the dank world of s*** and shame that I’ve built for myself by failing to make you my priority.

Oh, Charlie. I know you hate me, kiddo. And I don’t blame you one bit. I could never think any less of you. The only boy I ever loved.

You used to call me baobei. You used to call me daddy. I’d give anything, do anything, to have you call me anything at all now. I miss your voice, even raised in anger. I miss the way your eyes would widen…you remember what I mean.

Charlie. The erstwhile Mr. Tanuki. Calling yourself ugly meat doesn’t change anything for me. I miss you. I’ll always miss you. I think I’ll always love you.

Forgive me, Charlie.

New Confession

The bully was prepared, he pulled me down to this basement with like 10 preteens. He totally humiliated me. Forced me to strip. Touch myself and admit I was scared of him as they stared and laughed at me a grown man being humiliated. Later I found out that this isn’t new. It’s happening all over. The new drag someone randomly to a basement degrade them in front of children an record the whole thing to hold it against you.

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Last year I had se.x with my friends girlfriend. They broke up not long ago, but not because of that. He still doesn’t know what we did. I’m not going to lie, the first time we did it I lasted about 30 seconds before I eja.culated inside her. She’s just so fu.c.king beautiful, it was like my di.ck wanted to fill her with sp.erm before she had a chance to change her mind. After the first time I was able to go two more rounds and last much longer. I even made her c.um a couple of times. She spent the night in my bed and we had s.ex again in the morning. Yes, I feel fu.cking guilty about it, but I didn’t think their relationship would last anyway (I was right) and we just have a natural chemistry. I hope she doesn’t tell him out of spite. Believe it or not, I really like my friend and I want to stick with him. Thank you for giving me a chance to get this off my chest.