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I have had some rough relationships always picked the wrong ones for me and as silly as it is I’ve just found someone who fits I like everything about them.

Almost half a year into it and they still haven’t explicitly said how they feel about me yes I know by their actions but just once I wanna hear it said aloud because I got a little insecure about it.

One night whilst tipsy I aired my insecurity by saying I will never ever say I love you first despite being an open book with my emotions a challenge was set even tho we were both drinking but not drunk.

I’m over the insecurity now I know how they feel about me whether they say it or not and it sorta slipped my mind but the other day I entered a state of pilot mode and said “love you” just casually without thinking and as soon as I realised I prayed they didn’t hear me, then followed the “what did you just say?”

And like any normal person I went hot in the face announced I was going now and ran away. I’m beyond embarrassed that wasn’t how it was supposed to come out and to top it all off they called my name during my escape and when I looked back they cheekily flipped me off as of to say “I win” and yes it did make me feel way more comfortable about it all.

But I still can’t kick the feeling that it wasn’t supposed to come out like that I was gonna plan something a little special for them and properly tell them I loved them in a romantic setting.

But I think imma go MIA for a couple days instead ….

New Confession

Dad helped me get the floor and one wall built on my tree house using planks that were cracked or broken in the alleyway and coral when I was six. Over the next 5 years my year younger sister, occasionally Dad and I had built and rebuilt a 10′ x 16′ floor on 2 trees and a 8′ x 10′ tree fort with bricks from an old chimney and fire place from a burned down cabin. The walls were only 7′ tall on the front and 5′ on the back. The third year we had the fireplace half built when Dad came by on a tractor. He climbed up to see what we were doing and took it apart. He redid it with red bricks on the floor using mortar building a complete wall and fireplace. He didn’t make it to the field that day and part of the next, Sissy was siting on him a lot and I saw his hand on her crotch a few times. Dad didn’t help vey much with the walls and 2 windows but helped with the roof the next year. I was 10 with the coolest tree fort my friend ever saw. Every fire we lit in the fireplace smoked us out. The last year dad worked on it I was 11, he put glass doors on the fireplace , built a set of bunk beds and installed a real door. Sissy and Dad worked on it without me several times when I wasn’t at home. When we decided to name it and my a sign Sissy insisted it was named after her so Dad made a sign Sissy’s Hideaway. When I got off the school Bus I saw smoke coming from the chimney, I knew Sissy had stayed home sick. I ran to the Treehouse to see what she was doing. The Tractor was parked on the road, She was naked with Dad. I could see the way she was straddled on top half of his C0ck was half way inside her. I watched till Dad pulled out shoot c um on her back, then sneaked back down to the house. Mom came home from her part time job at our small town IGA 2 hours later but Dad and Sissy beat her home by 20 minutes. My sister was stocky and a little chubby so I did a few accidental backhand b*** feels and she seemed to like it. I went for an under shirt full B*** feel when we had got up before mom to watch cartoons, she looked at me curiously then smiled. Within a couple weeks of feeling b**** I put my hand inside her p******, she stopped me when I tried to put my finger in her cr ack but left my hand where it was at. It took another month before she let me work fingers inside her but it was that day we went to the Tree Fort and she took my Virginity a few days after my 12th birthday. We(Dad and Sissy some times too) used the Tree House Till she got the boyfriend she’ still married to a year before I went into he Army. When Dad died me and Sissy went up in the Treehouse, lit a fire and cleaned it up well enough to spend the night in a single sleeping bag.

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