When I was 11 I threatened to kill myself in front of my brother (he was 9) he had no idea what our parents had been doing to me and he had to talk me down from it. I feel f****** terrible that he will always remember me like that. I wish I could take it back and protect him better.I’m glad I’m out of his life and he’s doing good. I used to be f****** toxic because of what happened to me.he deserves a good life.