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Hello guys, Im going through a tough situation rightnow, I hope someone can help me getout of this regret and feeling that I’m evil and not a good person. Immoral, in my teenage time like I was 14-15 years. I touched a cow’s vigina with my foot, I didn’t know if that was right or wrong at that point of time may be out of curiosity I could have done that but no matter how many times I tell this to myself and try to convince that Im not a bad disgusting person still my brain kind of making me regret it very badly
. But suddenly last month that memery triggered into my brain. And now I feel like, why I did that and Am I really a disgusting person…these thoughts repeatively stuck in my brain. I am worried about everything in my life now, I know from depth of my heart that Im a good person but then after sometime this thought comes up into my mind and then I get moodoff and I don’t want to do anything in life and I get stuck and can’t focus and all my happiness turned into sorrow and I feel terrible that no one would do this and In the whole world I only did this and Im a cruel person and subjected to be punishment. I can’t seem to find a way out to live my life again with same happiness before 2 weeks.

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Today I wake up it’s day three since my capture. Been held in this basement for today the third day with no sign of when I’ll be released. My name is Jake I’m 20 years old. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. I was nabbed from a store round. This person seems to have no soul or compassion. He brought me here and has held me for three days completely naked.
This place looks like it was set up to hold people for periods of time. He has a fetish with preteen children, he befriends them, grooms them and trains them to aid in his bidding. They show up randomly in couples or small groups and as many ae twelve at a time.
He is a control freak and forces me to say whatever he wants me to say. Apparently he’s recording what he is doing to hopefully maintain my silence of what he’s done. I may seem rational to you but it’s because I’m writing from past history. But then, at the moment, I was so f****** scared I would do absolutely anything to get out of there. I finally got out by convincing him that I agreed with everything he was doing. He literally forced me to j******* in front of those kids until I came and I was to yell out how I liked that he forced me to because I was scared of him. He was turned on by the way the kids laughed at me. And that he caused it. I heard a boy say to another something about how many they’ve seen be a coward like that before. My people I’m warning you be aware this can happen to anybody, this nut isn’t racist nor judge mental. Everyone or anyone is fair game I’ve heard of different people and different states. Don’t walk alone men between 20 – 50.

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