Once I said horrible things to my mother and I watched her have a panic attack, when I tried to comfort her she ran to her room and locked herself in. I stayed outside the door and heard her sobbing. She forgave me after some time, but I still cry myself to sleep while thinking about what I did to her. She still snuggle with me and kiss my cheeks when she feels like it, but I don’t ask her to comfort me anymore, I don’t think I deserve her kindness. I don’t think I will ever forgive myself.
