When i was younger, i let a dog lick my p****. I enjoyed it, and encouraged the dog to do it. Now, years later, i have some unresolved health issues, that have largely not been diognosed or treated. I am a very Christian person. I struggle with this guilt, and have been afraid all this time that God has punished me for what i did. I know God forgives me because of Jesus, but im afraid ive still suffered the consequences of what ive done. I havent brought myself to tell this to anybody before. At my age, many people are getting married and habing kids. I want to be married more than anything, but im afraid i cant ever be marrierd cause of my bad decisions. Im afraid to be with a person s*******, even if they wanted to, because im afraid i have something contagious maybe. For this reason, i feel like i cant date or persue any female, in case we fell in love, because it would cause us both pain later-if i couldnt be with them because of all of this. I try to put my life in perspective, pretend things are fine, but the truth is, this has ruined my life, for about three years. I dont know how to tell anybody, get tested or treated, dont know how i can ever have a future. If somebody is a Christian, maybe they can pray for me.