I cheated on my wife. This woman came to room as a “European masseuse” and asked if I wanted her to take her clothes off. I said yes, of course. She did. She had me finger her and give her oral s** until she climaxed. Then she jacked me off and left. I paid her with stolen money from an offering plate. I knew what would probably happen when she came. I maybe didn’t expect to eat her out but I didn’t say no. Even while I was doing it, I felt so bad, and I wanted to just stop. But I couldn’t. I was too far into it all. I’m supposed to be a righteous man and I’m a complete failure as a human being. I’m a liar and a fake and a fraud and total scam artist. I’m not who people think I am, but I wish that I was. I’m tired of living like this. I need help but I’m too afraid to ask. I feel so guilty every day, it sits on my chest like a heavy weight or burden. I want out and to be free. Please forgive me Lord.