I’m so tired of living a sneaky, rat-like existence. I lie to keep people from being hurt, and that is fine..but when I lie to keep myself from being hurt, that’s when I feel disgusting. I should just bear it. But I feel like I can’t right now, and the truth will only cause drama and pain for everyone.

I feel like I’ve become so selfish and I’m tired of it. I want to be like I used to be but I don’t seem to have the reserve of giving I used to have. I’m so damn exhausted.

Every day I wake up with a knot in my stomach. When will it just go away?