I think it was my boyfriend that created a fake account with a photo of a half-naked guy on Instagram. He messaged me today and asked me to “hang out”. I replied to him that I don’t type to strangers, let alone hang out with them. I also mentioned I was taken and I blocked this person that contacted me.

The ironic thing is, at the same time a tab was open in my browser with a p*** website and e***** stories. I have a profile there since I was 17 years old (I’m almost 24 now), but nobody knows. I feel like a hypocrite. I gave my BF a hanjob on our fourth date. I’m busy studying for my master’s degree and when we do see each other (once a week), we’re all over each other. By the way he’s a very kind and proper young man; him and his mother both know my father (my BF is a bodybuilder and he used to hit the gym as my dad) and we live in a small town. I don’t want to disgrace my family but I love s** a lot. Yes, I was seen and probably recorded by a group of people while I was having s** in a forest park with my ex 4 months ago, and it tears me up inside. My father is an elderly and very strict man, he’d probably have a hert attack if he knew.

It’s so confusing and hard, plus my mom is angry with me and she puts me down because of my s** drive. I want to sleep with my BF… I often get into fights with her because of it, sometimes it turns physical and violent. All of this is eating me but I don’t know how stop. English isn’t my first language.

Maya