One half my family thinks I’m an idiot, the other half thinks I’m a hidden genius. Honestly, I’m tired of being a hidden genius. Staying in a room, reading and studying becomes lonely. I miss social interaction, also the subject and I’m attempting to study for. I really don’t even think I’m that great at it. The truth of the matter is, I kind of just want a job that I go to. Not kill myself physically, and make okay money. I’m not scared to do regular job, the only reason I like doing what I’m doing. Is because it’s the only job I found, that solves all my work-related issues. I like being alone when I’m working. I work very well alone, and I like being migrant. I don’t know why, but when I’m working people just develop opinions of me. I truly don’t think I’ve done anything to deserve them. I have no idea what kind of job meets this criteria other than Rideshare/Gig economy. I know I should make more money, but I don’t know what job that I could do that meets these requirements makes more money. Also, I feel weird because I have interests no one else really shares. Connecting with other people is difficult when you’re hiding in that room becoming that genius. Oddly enough in a way, sometimes I wonder if you’re making yourself lonelier than what you already are. Ironically by elevating yourself, you’re also elevating yourself from everyone around you. I’m tired of it, I want to live my lifestyle already. Have friends and enjoy my life and just live out the rest of my days in peace. I just wish I knew what else to do… Or what kind of job I could do…