I’m 39 but I still have nightmares about what happened to me my freshman year of college. I was proud of the fact that I had escaped losing my virginity in high school wanting to save that until I was married or at least engaged. Early into my freshman year on a Saturday a group of us freshman girls decided to go to a fraternity party we were invited to. I drank beer a little in high school but never any hard liquor. All of us girls were very tipsy as the evening went on. Each of us had kinda hooked up with someone. The guy I was with started coming on a little strong so I told him I was a virgin and not interested in anything. I was embarrassed when he stood up an announced to the room “Guy’s we’ve got us a cherry here.” The room erupted with cheers including most of the girls I had gone with. The next thing I know they’re taking me to a bedroom with me trying to resist but I wasn’t much of a match at 5’3” and 105 lbs. They threw me on the bed then as a couple of them held me by the arms others pulled my shoes off then my skirt and p******. All along I was begging them to stop. Almost everyone including the girls were in the room cheering “Yes, Yes, Yes”. They pulled me to the edge of the bed so I looked down seeing a guy putting a condom on. I told him to please not do that to me but it didn’t work and he had his way with me. As soon as he was finished another guy stepped in so I looked again seeing him put a condom on. Once he had finished someone said “Who gets the pleasure?” Then someone said “I will.” There was a pause then the cheering started again. This time when I looked someone with a hood on was there but this time they didn’t have a condom on. I screamed “No!!!” put a condom on” but in he went without it. Everyone was urging him on as I begged him to please not do that to me but then I felt him doing his thing. I asked him why he would do that to me and he just laughed. Once he had done his damage they gave him time to leave so I wouldn’t know who he was then let me go to th bathroom to clean up. I seemed like it would never stop running out of me. One of the girls brought my things to me so I got dressed then they took me back to the dorm where I quickly showered trying to clean out more. I was so ashamed and embarrassed ashamed of what ha happened I didn’t report it which I would know to do today. I wrote it off as a horrible experience. Then two weeks later I didn’t get my period. I had lost my virginity, my innocence and gotten knocked up all in one horrible evening. I had the pregnancy aborted and never let anyone know. I never wanted that guy to have the pleasure of knowing what he had done to me.