I want to die. I want to kill everyone I know or love. I never feel like im going to be enough. I wish my rope hadn’t broken 3 years ago. Im so goddamn fat even my f****** noose couldn’t support me. I have nothing going for me and I doubt I ever will. Im a dropout with low self esteem who tries to act cool in front of others, but in reality im just a fat, lazy slob of a “young man”. I can’t even keep my girlfriend happy anymore and I hate it so goddamn much. I hate myself and everyone around me, no matter how much I love them. Ill never do it but sometimes I have thoughts of taking my anger out on anyone and everyone I come across and then finally ending it. It will never happen but its some kind of sick, twisted fantasy that I’ve had every now and then. I hope therapy helps me. I really hope that I can overcome this. If you’re struggling, please seek help and take care of yourself in these hard times. Learn from others mistakes and be kind to yourself and others.