I messed up my own friendship with two of the most caring people, I blamed them constantly for things I did. I have to deal with seeing them both at the same high school, see them happily moving on. I know I shouldn’t feel like this but I genuinely think that they were my support system. I’ve gone through a lot and I don’t know what to do at the moment. I feel like I lost the only people who tried to understand me. I feel guilty wanting them again, I never deserved them. They were too good to me, I was just too much of a bad person to them.