I think I am still in love with my first boyfriend. When we broke up I was so cruel to him. He now has a child and I am engaged. I feel like I should’ve been the one to have his baby. I almost feel tortured by the thought that I may be in love with him, when I gave another man my word to love him forever. When my current partner I have security in life, but I do not feel desired. My past love I felt that we might have to struggle in life, but I would always feel treasured. My best friend asked me if I was really happy. I do not know what to say or do.
