`Over qaurentine i’ve discovered something.
I want a girlfriend/boyfriend/partner
Sometimes at night depends on the mood but i will see a wholesome relationship and think how much i want someone to love me and hug me and cuddle with and sometimes i’ll cry.

I might have a crush on my friend and she may like me back. I’m pan and she’s bi and we hold hands, hug, cuddle and have kissed twice when playing spin the bottle. I’m scared to tell her my feelings because these are just normal friend things and i feel like i’m just assuming she likes me back because of her s********.

I honestly hate life and have axiety attacks quite often. I only recently got over cutting myself and might end up doing it again if my dad doesn’t stop being toxic. I’ve come close to attempting suicide 5 times since corona happened.

I get jealous easily. It’s most likely because i can’t get friends for long so i just want to keep them and not let them leave.

That was my rant don’t judge