I think my family is hiding something from me. I’m gonna go back to school soon but I overheard my family talking in the garden (I wasn’t trying to eavesdrop but I heard them say my name multiple times. My family tend to forget, or maybe they just don’t know, that I can hear them in the garden if my window is open.)
I heard them talking about something, I couldn’t quite make out what but they all sounded mad at me. I’m not the best with school and if I can I much prefer to do something I enjoy, rather than schoolwork, which is s***** I know. I’m trying to change and get motivated and better at it, but I find it hard.
They mentioned something with emails so I think I have a email to read but the way they were talking about it made me really anxious so now, I’m really worried about opening it.
To the point where I think I’m having a panic attack just writing about this. (I can feel my heart beating quite fast, I’m silently crying and feel sick). The thing that worries me is that I could hear that they were mad at me, but as soon as I went to see them outside (didn’t say anything about it cause I’m awful at confrontation) they all pretended everything was fine. But I keep getting the feeling that they are all mad at me.
I want to ask but I know they’ll get mad at me for ‘eavesdropping’ when they were talking about it, quite loudly. I don’t want them mad at me but I want to know what it was about and I don’t know what to do. I’m panicking at just the thought of opening my emails to the point where I feel physically sick. But I hate asking them for help with school and stuff, because sometimes when I do, they get annoyed that I don’t know or have trouble understanding something.
I just don’t know what to do and I’m panicking and I hate it. Anyone got any advice please?
