I’m a timidish guy mid twenties with a really big heart, empathy is a deep route of my being. guilt eats me up and this feels kinds guilty.
The adventures of a shy hot guy Pt 1.

I met this girl a few nights ago that I matched with on tinder a few years ago and we finally met up at a bar, she was a really nice girl, friendly and cute too. You know that saying that you can tell very quickly within meeting someone if you like them or not? I’m not sure about everyone, but empaths tend to do this to a higher degree, there is so much detail and data that is being observed that a short meeting with someone can tell an empath a lot about that person. This encounter was no different. Like I said, she’s a nice girl and really cute but I could just tell she wasn’t the one for me, as in a life partner. Knowing this early on I backed myself off a bit you could say, like I wasn’t that serious in trying to flirt with her, but I still made sure to look out for her at the bar (she went with a group of girl-friends, they were all pretty lovely too. Anyhow, night progresses, a few drinks are drunk between us and there was a moment where it felt like she wanted to kiss me and without hesitation I gave that girl a good smooch, she was a great kisser. (Random fyi, it’s been over a year since my last kiss and encounter with a gorgeous temptress like this one)
Long story short, we went home together. But throughout I wasn’t giving her my all, like you know when you really like someone and there’s nearly next to nothing that’ll stop you from trying to please and make your chosen one feel special, like she’s the only girl in the world you want to look at.
Lil side tidbit and piece of advice: We we’re about to get funky and do the dance with no pants when I said ‘I should probably get a condom hey’ to which she replied it’s okay I’m on the pill, I didnt want to risk it though there’s too many unwanted pregnancies as it is no need to add another to the mix. Turns out though, she was allergic to latex… I ended up just risking it for the biscuit (not advised, boys, prepare and buy non-latex condoms specifically for if something like this happens, skyn is a popular brand and their original brand is latex-free, don’t be silly and wrap your willy!)

Okay so, the night was awesome we both had fun (neither of us came but hey alcohol can do that), and I did the gentlemanly thing and drove her home the next day after getting some hangover food. Last night I went to see her again just to chill out and the topic came up of keeping things casual. Which I was kinda glad she brought up as I was pondering when to do it.

So with the context in place here is my confession as a hot shy guy (Trying to be as modest as I can without sounding douche or sad boi like)

I hope my backing off and not giving this girl my all didn’t cause her to have ill feelings towards me, she mentioned a few times during the night that she had been looking forward to it for ages and I wasn’t going to ruin a good night with a touchy topic. I hope this girl and I can stay friends whatever that classification of friends may be, she’s an awesome girl and I’ll always want the best for her. I just know that she isn’t for me and my heart is wise enough to not try and fill voids at the cost of another’s happiness, that is cruel.

Till my next confession, catchya, JJ