I’m depressed/suicidal but I’m afraid to tell my family because I don’t really know how. My older sister died in a car accident when I was a teenager. It fucked my whole family up, I’m still kind of fucked up over it if I’m being honest.

Afterwards my parents became very overprotective, something I hated but couldn’t bring myself to blame them for. As a result I just accepted it and ended up missing out on a lot of things when I was younger like hanging out with friends and going to parties etc. Again I dont blame them for this because they are amazing parents otherwise.

Telling them their kid wants to kill themselves after they have already lost one is something I cannot bring myself to do. Talking about my feelings is also something I’ve never really done before. It seems like such a foreign concept to me. After my sister died I developed a habit of bottling up my emotions because my family would get incredibly upset when I did. I’ve been to therapy before but couldn’t even bring my suicidal thoughts up there. Idk what is wrong with me.