I once thought I was a crossdresser, but took too long to realize that I actually should be a woman. I have a career and family now so it is difficult to permanently make a change, so I dress as much as possible, secretly take hormones and essentially like as a girl with out being out in front of family.
I sneek out and go shopping as my enfemme self. When I travel for work I travel as a girl. I am not attracted to men and their looks. I do like c*** though and have found I can work a c*** like no one else.
Its not an e***** thing. I feel better being this way. I love to feel s***. I have natural breasts and wear thing to make them bigger. I look at my c*** and balls and wish they were a v*****. I am really good at s** with men and can only imagine if I had the full parts.
I made an appointment to transition but it was cancelled due to pandemic. I wonder if my timing is keeping me in my current body even though i am unhappy being a male.
