I am guilty for going behind my lovers back. Right now he is grounded and today I have interacted in s***** roleplay. I already hate myself and I always feel like a failure. He tells me I’m not and he always makes me feel better but when he’s gone I lose my self control. I just need him with me in person. I need him to cuddle me and tell me everything will be alright and that nothing would separate us. And I want to do the same for him. SO BAD but we have not met in person yet but we have seen each other and called each other so I trust him as he should trust me. I just want these urges to leave when he leaves and when he comes back those urges come at the right time.
