Me and my coworker kissed once on a work trip. That wasnt the problem though. I think we both wanted to do it for a long time since we used to hang out together alot at work. And the other problem was that he was engaged at the time and i was single. After the worktrip we talked about it and agreed it was a mistake and we should keep our friendship going as it used to be.
The thing is we only started flirting even more. We couldnt stay away from each other at work. Always near each other but neither of us had the courage to accept it. I was so obsessed with him and his lips and everything about him. I knew all the time it was wrong but the urge to feel him again overcame the guilt. We went out one night and kissed some more but didnt have s***** relations. He said some things to me that got stuck to me for a while like “if only i wasnt engaged so early” . After that i drifted away from him because i felt ashamed. It been over a year and sometimes i cant sleep thinking about it. I feel so bad about what i dit but sometimes i think if i didnt do it it would always haunt me because i really felt for this guy for a while.
Before i end this confession i would also like to mention that before all of this started, me and his fiance and him went for coffe and she was just the cutesssst and a great person and soooo beautiful.
I just feel guilty a lot about it.