I can’t stop watching p***. My family is religious and everyday i hide this secret. I hate it and keep trying to stop but i can’t. It causes me to feel like a failure and depressed and want to die. I look at my parents and can’t bear to tell them. It would destroy it all. I hate myself and everything i do. I can’t be in a relationship and i fear to have one. I watch p*** to fill that empty hole but it really doesn’t. I want it to go away. I want to go away.