I continue to be in a physical relationship with my father, however I don’t want to. He is adamant and sometimes even violent. I want him to love me, that’s all I’ve wanted since he left when I was little. That’s all I’ve wanted since he came back. I feel like the only way for me to be loved by him is to keep allowing him to use me. I struggle and cry and scream and say no and he thrives on it. He loves hurting me. But he always tells me how much he loves me after… May God forgive me. I love him too.