My girlfriend told me she might be polyamorous today. We talked about it a ling time. If I’m being honest I dont like it. The thought of someone else makes me feel horrible. I hate this feeling. I said I would think things thru and see what happens when we are more secure in what we are and if my feelings change. I want to give her everything she wants. But if I’m being honest, I dont know if i can do this. I care about her so much. I would hate to lose her. But I also know that if my feelings dont change, I might have to say goodbye. My selfish thought is I hope she never finds someone else and we can pretend we never talked about it. But that isnt fair to her. I hate myself for feeling like this but I dont know what else I can do. I have to decided what I’m willing to give up. But it feels like I would be putting on a brave face just to end up feeling hurt and rejected.