my bf is interested in me sleeping with other people and i realized im probably poly/non-monogamous so i dated a mutual friend for about 3 months. we fucked. afterwards my bf “accidentally” saw our personal messages of romantic nature and decided he wasn’t cool with it anymore. i love my bf so i broke it off, but i can’t help but think about this guy all the time. we are completely platonic and tbh we hardly talk anymore. its just hard to love my bf and want to respect his wishes and make him comfortable but also yearning to still see this guy. everything was just really good when i was dating both of them and everyone was happy. i wish i could go back to when none of this happened, rather than sit here and yearn for something i can’t have and can’t forget about and have it affect my current relationship which i value greatly. honestly i’d feel more guilty if my bf hadn’t cheated before.