When I was 8 I told my grandmother my dad abused me for years, I don’t know why the f*** I did it, but I have hated myself ever since, I feel like I deserve to die, my dad just contacted me recently, I don’t know if he knows about my lie, but he seems like a good man and I hate myself even more now, I’m such a horrible person, I want to scream it out from the rooftop and to everybody I’ve lied to but I’m too much of a coward and too scared of my family seeing me for the horrible, horrible person I really am
