i’ve been hooking up with someone who’s engaged. i haven’t told him that i also have feelings for him. i know he doesn’t feel the same way and would never leave his fiancee. but it’s really made me lose faith in love and commitment because he’s the last person anyone would ever expect to do something like this. every time i know he’s going home to her, the guilt and jealousy make me so anxious and make me want to punish myself. i don’t know how much longer i can keep this up.
