I’m really jealous of my younger sister, despite us both being female and her being the youngest she gets the bigger room and its twice the size of mine. she’s the family favourite and gets all the attention from our parents. she owns her own wardrobe, art table, art tablet and PC. I am stuck in the old boiler room. today I got so jealous that my parents were spending time with her that I tried to make her I’ll, I doused her room with perfume and sprayed it into her fan beside her bed, I sprayed deodorant into her pillow and bottle of water and put soap on her toothbrush.

she walked into her room and was immediately hit by the smell of cheap perfume asking my mum if she sprayed anything. she turned her fan on to try and air out her room but the perfume on the fan flew into her eyes and she was temporarily blinded and had to wash out her eyes. I feel like my mum suspects me of doing it but my dad thinks I’m completely innocent.

I guess im only really guilty about the fact that I enjoyed seeing her in pain, it made me feel so very happy. I think I need a therapist but every time I try to talk to my parents about it they change the subject or start ignoring me to talk to her.

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