I am 18 year old girl. I was born and raised Christian and I struggled with m***********. OK yes I know, big deal, another Christian dealing with guilt after m***********; I’m pretty sure everyone does at some point. However, I just wanted to get it off my chest. A typed out confession if you will.

I started sometime when I was sixteen. Even up to this point, I only every rubbed never actually inserted anything because I knew that was a line I could not cross back from. I finally told the priest during a retreat when I was seventeen what I was doing. He told me I wasn’t alone and that was it. I masturbated again a few times after that, but now it’s been a few months since I have done it and it doesn’t feel like a habit anymore. I’m over it.

That being said, do I have to confess again after I already confessed? I really don’t want to, and the priest probably already knows that I did it again after that day. It’s just hard because sometimes I feel like I’m doing the right things for the wrong reasons. For example, I stopped this habit because I don’t want to go to hell, not because I want to get closer to God; although I do want to. Whenever I pray, this always looms over my head and my relationship with God feels ingenuine/like an act.

Anyways, long story short. I’m not going to hell, right?