I’m 19 and engaged to a wonderful guy who thinks I’m a virgin. When I was in the 8th grade of middle school I made a horrible mistake. My mother had not let me date up to that time. A guy who was a a junior in high school kept asking me out but I knew she would not allow it. So, I had a friend ask me to spend a Saturday night with her and slipped out with him. I ahd never kissed or anything so when we parked he taught me to french kiss which was exciting. Things happened a lot faster than I expected and we ended up having unprotected s**. As luck would have it I got pregnant and had to have an abortion. After that I have never had s** again but feel guilty keeping it a secret from him.