Okay, I’m an 18 y/o girl and I recently joined this site. Basically…. its tumblr but… uhhhhh explicit. I just joined out of curiosity more than anything else. But i made this profile with a fake name and I kind of.. made up this persona. I mean, nothing crazy, but honestly none of the stuff i post and reblog on there is really my thing at all. I was just really curious to see if someone would reach out to me if I put my age and a coy message in my bio. And someone did. Well, a couple people. Most were just sending explicit s***** messages about what they’d like to do to me, but one guy just started talking to me. Kinda normally. I went on a follow spree and his was one of the blogs I followed. And its weird. I would literally never want to be involved with an older man, and I think grown a** adults who go after teens are gross, but I kind of enjoy it when it’s directed at this pretend girl who is into all the stuff he’s into. Only, I really am not. It’s gross, but he has this i***** themed blog. It’s not shocking to me, I was exposed to all sorts of kinks when I was young because of the internet. I’m used to it. But now I’m this close to being involved in it. And it makes me feel sick. But I pretend because I just kind of enjoy being the person I’m pretending to me. A flirty feminine girl who would f*** whoever. Which isn’t me at all. Not that I think I’m secretly those things. I’m really not. But I like stringing him along. I like the fantasy. I’d feel bad… but he runs a f****** i***** blog and he’s trying to flirt with a teenager. At the moment our conversations are purely innocent, which somehow makes me feel ever grosser. I’ve made legit online friends but this whole thing is weird and fucked up. But i also kind of enjoy it. Part of me wants him to start trying to get s***** with me, just to see how I would deal with it, but I also know I couldn’t stomach being this persona in the s***** way he would want. I’m a stubborn fucker (no pun) and i know I couldn’t be degraded, even over chat. And I could not call him some s*** like daddy. I would never be able to look anyone in the eye again. Idk. I don’t know why I’m doing this. I’m comforted in the fact that I could delete this account any second. And I will. Cos I feel dirty, and not in the good way. But it’s oddly satisfying to tease and flirt and joke with him. It’s interesting to create a persona which is nothing like you and to fabricate a life for yourself. Wow. I must be really sad
