So, I’ve been taking a brake from general social media for about 4 days now, and it feels nice. I didn’t really tell anyone I was doing it – but I wanted to try and do something for myself that would help with my distracted tendencies. We so often reach for our phones and click those apps ththaththat we forget how to deal with boredom. And I wanted to get that back.
Now, that said – I did decide to do a general check today to see if I got any important messages (I’m waiting on a couple of commissions I ordered), and one of my friends hand messaged me to ask if I was okay.
We used to talk all the time, but I’ve been on a break…and I neglected to tell him I was going AFK for a while. I saw the message…and I could have responded. I should have responded to tell him I was okay, but I didn’t. The evil part of me is glad to know that he cares and is worried enough to check in on me. And that’s just cruel of me. I shouldn’t want him to worry about me, but there’s something that just warms my soul to know he cares enough to notice I’ve been gone.
I’ll let him know I’m okay once I’ve finished this week, knowing that I may be making a poor decision. But…that’s the evil woman inside me that likes to play with people’s emotions. I know it’s wrong, and I feel bad about it, but I also want him to worry. Just a little bit. I want to see how far he’ll take things to check to see if I’m alright.
I’m a bad person. But right now, I feel so good.