I let my jeans wear out too much. They tore in the back, and I bent over to put my bag down in front of the whole class. I didn't know they were torn

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I let my jeans wear out too much. They tore in the back, and I bent over to put my bag down in front of the whole class. I didn’t know they were torn until this weekend. So god knows how many days of the week i’ve been wearing these jeans with a hole in the back near the crotch. It’s my worst nightmare. I don’t know what is scarier, the fact that my jeans randomly can tear in places they shouldn’t, or that none of my so called “friends” told me about it. Now people are avoiding me on campus. Two guys walked by the study room I was in, just to give me the death glare, one while shaking his head at me. One of my old friends straight up ignored me when I said hello after not seeing her for a long time. Did a rumor sweep through the school that fast? We are all supposed to be adults here. This is my worst nightmare, all I can do is hope everyone forgets about it.

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I’ve lost my Ego, self respect and dignity. I have nothing own nothing, am nothing but worthy of whatever the bully wishes from me. And what that means is that my life is to be exposed, exhibited. Be degraded daily by my bully so he can get off on his thrills of humiliating me in front of however many or little amount of kids happen to show up. The crowds apparently seem to get bigger as the days go by. My humiliation is becoming acceptance as routine is becoming comfortability. These pre adult children are masters at performing to show angst between disgust and desire. Which adds to the shame. Of what’s being done to me.

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