I have a friend who helped me realize that I may be depressed, and is a major part of the reason I'm more open with myself about it. I care about him a

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I have a friend who helped me realize that I may be depressed, and is a major part of the reason I’m more open with myself about it. I care about him a whole dang lot, and it seems like he wants me to open up more about how I’m feeling, but I can’t. Part of me feels guilty for claiming to have depression as well as the potential I have to annoy him or become more of a burden on him than I probably already am. At the same time, I also feel guilty for pushing him away.
I feel really terrible about it, it’s starting to eat me.
I want to show him that I do trust him, I just feel selfish no matter what I do. Selfish for making my problems his, selfish for accepting the help i have without even being completely open.
I don’t know if i could ever tell him this, either. I feel pathetic confessing it, like its such a petty stupid thing to get worked up over. It would just be annoying because i’m just annoying.

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My parents didn’t do enough when raising me to teach me that actions have consequences and you can’t just be anything you want.

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