Hi I am a 50 year old married with two grown daughters and 1 granddaughter. I’ve been a Christian for 26 years. I recently found my first love on facebook

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Hi
I am a 50 year old married with two grown daughters and 1 granddaughter. I’ve been a Christian for 26 years.
I recently found my first love on facebook and we’ve been talking for a year now. We have not met up yet. I am the one who contacted him first because over the last couple of years I could not stop thinking of him. I have always loved him since the day he asked me out in junior high school. But we lost contact because he went to the military. When he came home we was intimate for the first time. But I felt he was not feeling me like he should have after we were intimate. So I left him alone. So we have not talk for almost 30 + years. Off and on my family member would tell me he ask for me. He even called me a couple times. But we never connected until now. I love me husband but I’m in love with him. I don’t know what to do with these feelings. I feel so guilty about feeling this way. One side of me want to meet him hold him caress him and make love to him and the other side I am afraid of what the outcome will be. Is he real when he says he loved me then and still do. With my luck if I leave my husband to be with him eventually he will move on to someone else. He did a lot of things that make not trust him so I’m really apprehensive. Plus I know its not Godly thing to do. But I feel miserable 😩. I think 🤔 about him all the time. I don’t know why your heart doesn’t do what your mind tells it. I know the heart is deceitful among all things. If we were meant to be together God will let it be. Thanks for listening just had to get it off my chest. Know one knows how I feel. Accept him. We still text back and forth.

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