There was this party at a friend’s house and (this may sound boring) I was just sitting down and reading some books about geography. I really enjoyed that and learned a lot of things. It was around 1:00 am and the party was slowly getting smaller by the minute. David (not real name) came to me and I followed him to the kitchen with my other friends. They were obviously planning something stupid and hilarious. But then Frank (not real name) suggested something freaky and definitely not funny. Frank dared James (not real name) to “get it” with Hannah (not real name). Richard (not real name) being the resourceful friend got some pills to do the trick. I was seriously not going through this if I knew someone was going to get hurt. They convinced me to be a part of it and since I’ve been with these guys for life, I agreed. Frank said I only needed to film their “business” so I said yes. James talked with Hannah and we helped him distract her while he slips the pills in her drink. We left them alone and waited for several minutes for his “magic” to take place. When it did, we led the both of them in the shed beside the backyard and we watched while he “you know” Hannah. Obviously she was wasted and we took advantage of that. But she wasn’t wasted enough and realized the situation she was in. They didn’t care and we restrained her to the floor. James ripped her clothes off and began (I should just say it) assaulting her from her chest to her private. Then he proceeded to penetrate and r*** her while she screamed in agony. We just laughed and I gagged her mouth to prevent her from shouting. Honestly, I didn’t LIKE that at all. The idea of violating a girl like Hannah bothered me. I PROMISE I DID NOT R*** HER I ONLY HELPED THEM WITH IT. Whenever I think of that night, her voice creeps in my head and yells at me for being a guilty little s*** like my friends. I seriously and I genuinely wanted to stop them when Hannah couldn’t take it anymore. She was crying so much and her whole body was shaking and sweaty and I felt like I could hear her voice clearly. I could tell from the gag that I put. The worst part was I recorded everything that happened and I still have that f****** video. She eventually passed out probably because of the trauma and when they were finished we just carried her to the bench. I’ve been seeing a therapist lately to seek some help. I opened up to him and he said to me what would I do if my girlfriend found out. What would she do if she found out. Then he told me to visualize an image in my mind that depicts me in front of Hannah in an empty room just the two of us. I want to drop down on my knees and cry. I REALLY want her to forgive me. I can’t live properly knowing I took part in doing that. I’m only 21! I want to see her personally and just let go of all the guilt and pain. Guys, please don’t judge me or think that I’m a bad person. I was convinced and they were my friends! I never wanted it to happen.
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You’re evil. There are two types of evil people: people who do evil acts, and people who stand by while evil acts happen. If you have a shred of decency, you will help her get justice. You probably won’t, though, because you’re a fucking coward.
I’m not evil at all I’ve done some bad stuff before but overall the good I do can’t compare to that
You gagged her. You restrained her. You recorded her in her darkest moments. Do you actually think you’re not bad?
I mean I understand that they were your friends but you morally shouldn’t have done it and your friends belong in hell for doing it women are not things what would you do if you found your girlfriend like that drugged and raped by men. Hannah will probably not forgive you unless she is a saint. You must live with your sins that is sadly your punishment I’m sorry I hope you feel better
You helped them and I’m sorry to say but that puts just as much dirt on your hands. You say that you want her forgiveness but are you sorry have you learned that what you did was wrong and why it was wrong, have you learned that no matter gender or anything we are all human. Do you Deserve her forgiveness….. sadly only you can answer that question if you are truly sorry and feel terrible about what happened then you know the answer
Of course your’e a bad person
Congratulations you ruined a life
Those aren’t friends. Those are monsters. Disgusting creature, you shouldn’t even be called human.
LISTEN I’M NOT A BAD PERSON I WAS JUST CONVINCED AND I COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO HELP HER BECAUSE THEY ARE MY FRIENDS
You’re not irredeemable, you’re not a “bad” person. However, you need to realize that you did rape her, you did something very bad. Your “friends” did not make you do anything. You need to take responsibility. Do you really think that you were powerless? This situation isn’t really about you, and yet you don’t even seem to care about Hannah’s pain- “I’m only 21” “I want to let go of all the guilt and pain”, “I’m not a bad person I was just…”, you seem to be really focused on making yourself feel better. You dehumanized, hurt, and tortured another human being and both of you will have to live with that. If you choose to apologize, it should because you regret what you did to Hannah- not because you regret how it made you feel. I sincerely hope that you can learn from this, but do not expect the guilt to ever leave you. I will think good thoughts for you, and I hope with all my heart that you may find guidance through this that does not allow you continue on this path of purely defending yourself with foolish excuses. You may need to carve your own path. May you be granted the strength to first learn the error of your ways (it does not appear you realize what you did, nor your role in it*), then sit with that and, hopefully, apologize to Hannah, not for yourself, but to express the deepest regret of the soul-deep pain you have caused her and that she will have to live with forever. Your life will continue, but it is up to you in what way it does. I hope, and expect, that you may come to deeper understanding of humanity, especially yours, as you work through this act of violence the rest of your days.
*”Honestly, I didn’t LIKE that at all. The idea of violating a girl like Hannah bothered me. I PROMISE I DID NOT RAPE HER I ONLY HELPED THEM WITH IT.” 1 in 5 women in America will be the victim of rape in their lives. One in five (probably more like 1 in 3 will be assaulted on a global scale). Think of 5 women you know, 1 will have gone through the same thing Hannah did. Think of 5 more, another Hannah. Your mom? girlfriend? a nice girl in your class? teacher? grandmother? One of them went through what you put Hannah through. You perpetrated this violence against another human being. Of course you should not “like” it, you should be revolted. ‘A girl like Hannah’? No human person deserves this, and I hope you realize this. “I only helped them” is a disturbing sentence (one of many here), and this is why people are attacking you so vehemently. As you work with your therapist, try to transition from what this could mean for you, as some who “only helped”, and know that what you’re feeling is a fraction of what Hannah, who was the victim of some 5 guys raping her, is feeling. This is a fraction of what every 1 in 5 women feel. What can you do to stop this from happening to more people? The first step is realizing people have power, including you in this situation (you used your power, or rather chose not to utilize yours, in such away that took Hannah’s power forcibly away) and although it is pointless to think about what you could have done, take the time to learn what other people can do- including you- to prevent this from happening. get involved with rape prevention programs. Does your campus have sexual assault awareness programs? As you process this, I hope you may find healing by doing your part to stop this from happening to more people, ‘girls like Hannah’ or otherwise.
Should have jerked off and blew a load on her face/tits.
Well just kill yourself that’s the solution
^ that was a joke, don’t take it serious, just speak to someone and things will get better
Turn in the video to the police with your name and he name of all your friends. Stand up for whats right and tell the truth.
or kill yourself; but be sure to leave the video and the names for the police.
You’re going to get the same done to you when you get put behind bars
People are made up of good moments and bad moments.
Bad moments like you trying up and aiding in raping ‘Hannah’, a moment that deserves no sympathy in what it is. Coming to terms with the fact that what happened that night is the reason so many people here call you a monster is an important step in figuring out what to do in the situation.
However, there can be good moments. Good moments like taking the steps now to help ‘Hannah’ in healing. Whether that be to piss off and leave her alone forever or help her in getting the guys who raped her (including yourself – whether you stuck your dick in her or not, you still raped her).
People are not always forgiving, nor are they required to be. It is not in any way your right to earn the forgivness of this poor Hannah chick, but if you are truly sorry for what you did and in every way guilty, you will be able to make the steps to help repair what you broke in her life.
At the very very least, you atleast realise what you’ve done is sickening and wrong. I hope you find a way to make it up to her.
I don’t know the whole situation but I do know that there is no turning back on it and you have to live with the fact that you ruined that girl’s life. There are chances you guys will see each other again since you and your friends met her at a friend’s party. Before that happens, think of all the horrific actions you and your friends inflicted on her. You may have recorded it but you still helped them with it. Confront her when she is alone and be truthful of everything. The best way to let go is to do it in front of her. When she starts to cry, do not say that it’s ok because it’s not. Console her and ask for forgiveness. Lastly, do a favor for her no matter what it is. In my opinion, you shouldn’t drag your friends on this unless she asks about them. Good luck
You’re a pathetic coward. Knowing and feeling that you didn’t like restraining her you still pressed on with it just to satisfy your ”friends” desires. You’re weak and insignificant. You’ll only be a stepping stone for the rest of the world, as proved by the events that took that night – a weakling who only did what others told you to do yet lacks the dignity and balls to stand up to it. All you’ll ever be is a coward.
He is a sack of shit but give the boy a break. Pier pressure got to him and now this kind of pressure is getting to him. He’s adamant on redeeming himself so why not help him with that. He confessed on committing it willingly or unwillingly.
i have to say i only clicked this because you have the most dislikes i have ever seen and after reading that you just got mine
i only clicked cas it was the most viewed this month
I know peer pressure is real. You might feel like you needed to be the part of the “gang” to show your loyalty or whatever shit it is.
But you also need to know, those so-called-loyalty (or fear) of yours is not as important as a life (that’s ruined) for Hannah.
I think it’s good that you are guilty. Please find someone who could help you do the right thing.
Maybe hand over the video to the police or something. Of course, you can also find Hannah and apologize to her.
Remember she has the right to spit in your face or (trying to) strangle you or throw a flower pot on your head.
You ruined her life.
Honestly I’m afraid of her and I don’t want to go to prison. I want to meet her again and tell her everything but at the same time I’m scared of what she’ll do to me if I confess.
damn ryt she going to kill you twice
Since it doesn’t madder anymore you’ve fed the troll. You’ve all lost… Now he will continue to pick at you.
Another troll.
Once read about a father in police criminal reports that tracked and killed everyone who took part in raping his daughter.
Anyway rot in hell you miserable piece of human trash.
^ Hope she’s got a father like that. OP doesn’t sound remotely remorseful, he just seems sorry for himself.
Im willing to pay to see this awesome video. I applaud what you did not everyone can get a decent footage like that