I have an internet friend that I’m very protective over and I get jealous easily whenever she talks about a certain boy that stole her nickname that she used for me and calls her that and just annoys me in general and I don’t know why. I don’t think I have a crush on her since I’ve never had one and I’m probably not a lesbian, but I’m worried if I actually do like her in that way. I daydream about meeting her and we say we’re engaged and when we meet we’ll get ringpops as our marriage rings, and whenever we go on call I just listen to her voice and smile, and I’m pretty close to her. And I’m so frustrated about how jealous and protective I get about her. I play it off as a joke or being sarcastically overdramatic but I get genuinely angry and salty and then sugarcoat it and pretend I’m not angry, is there something wrong with me or do I have feelings for her? Maybe it’s because of puberty or because we’re so close and personal with each other? I’m 14 and she’s 13, and we’ve known each other since 2017 if you wanted to know. Sorry if my wording is really bad or anything else is really weird, I’m just angry at myself.
