Early This morning I woke up drunk with a unknown naked possibly young teenage girl in my asleep in a hotel room bed and I have no memory of who she is or how I got there. I didn’t see any of her clothes in the room, just a pair of high heels, presumably hers. Oddly, I had no underwear at all. She apparently had no other clothes or phone or purse in the room.

I freaked out. I didn’t know if she was underaged or what. My d*** was sticky and I got the terrible feeling that I almost certainly had unprotected s** with her. There were no condoms wrappers in the trash can. I’m probably fucked this up again… I just hope she didn’t end up pregnant… I cannot deal with another teenage girl’s abortion right now weighing on my conscious

I flipped out and nearly vomited everywhere in the room as I started sweating profusely, but I held my shy together for the moment and tried not to wake her.

The sun had not yet come up and it was still dark early in the morning when I Ran away. Weird thing is I found some pants and a shirt that weren’t mine, so I took them and left. At first I thought I was lost but somehow I found out My hotel was 16 blocks away. I ran in the rain and got turned around in an alley and I threw up everywhere.

I was delierious and hallucinating. When I got to what I thought was my hotel, I threw up on some poor young woman dressed in a pansuit who was getting off the elevator. I mostly threw up on her shoes, but she was mortified. She didn’t have pantyhose with her high heels, so my vomit touched her bare feet and her pants legs. She started crying. And then I figured out I was at the wrong place

I ran out of there and ran down the street to my real hotel. Somehow I talked the morbidly obese fat lady who was the hotel clerk into giving me a key to the room I thought was mine and she let me in. She insisted on coming with me. I could feel her breath on me in the elevator and she was uncomfortably close to me. She smelled like meat, like maybe ham that’s been left out all day.

I started crying when I got to my hotel room. The fat girl put her hand on me and told me it would be alright. I told her I had been drinking heavily last night while out of town yet again for work and apparently got blacknout drunk again and maybe that I might have had unprotected s** with an underaged girl again. I cried and told her my d*** was sticky and that I didn’t have any underwear and that I was supposed to go to a work meeting today

The fat hotel clerk took advantage of me. She knew she could et away with it. Before I could stop her she had shoved her fat little ham hands into my pants, and was caressing my c***, still sticky with god knows what. She took my pants off and fondled my balls more and I told her it felt nice. She told me I needed to get showered, and then she stripped me naked and washed me. I felt oddly arroused again. I’ve never been washed by a woman before. She tcaressed my shaft and it got very had. Then she pulled me out of the shower and put me on the bed, and slid her skirt and p****** down she pressed her chubby pale spare into me. My d*** disappeared and I started to faint after getting out of the hot shower, but she was jerking me off. She used her mouth too and got me very aroused as I regained consciousness some, then she switch back to jerking me off and then she slid me inside her just as I began to c** inside her.

It felt so wrong. I threw up again right after I came and she pulled her p****** and skirt up and she quickly left the room. She had a sinister s*** eating grin on her face.

She basically raped me

I passed out again and woke up when the illegal Mexican maid came in the room and found me naked a few hours later

The other really fucked us thing is that I lost my wallet and cell phone last night and have been trying to fake it at this out of town work meeting today.

I was several hours late and was clearly hungover all day. I had to send emails from my laptop that unfortunately had left in my hotel room to try to make up cover story about my phone not working and me trying to et it fixed.

Everyone knows it all b*******. All my excuses real of those of a chronic alcoholic

I put on my suit to try to go to the meeting late and Somehow I lost my only pair of underwear last night and so I’ve been without all day and feeing very exposed.

When I was waiting to get off the elevator after the meeting I think I accidentally peed myself a little again.

Now I’m stuck at the airport with my flight home delayed at first and now cancelled. I have no money and no credit cards and no smart phone. I even lost my drivers license.

Fortunately On my laptop I was able to pull up my insurance card from an email and print it off along with a printed electronic version of my business card and then show my company website where I’m listed to show them who I was.

The company is almost certainly going to fire me soon

My wife will flip the f*** out if she ever finds out all that’s happened.

She’ll divorce me if she finds out about any of the drunken extramarital s**

I’m
Not 100% sure what happens most times when I get blackout drunk

I like to think I was too drunk to f***

But I know better. When I get on the amphetamines and then when I take extra speed I can apparently stay rock hard while otherwise blackout drunk and even though I cat remember it it makes me something like a s** Maniac

I know I fucked some college girl at a Batchelorette party back 6 years ago

I also know I fucked a coworker who was 7 years younger than me that same night when she and I were out of town together – we had to drive back and it was awful because she was so worried about getting pregnant

At least those girls were of age

I’m f****** terrified that the girl passed out in the hotel room this morning was underaged. Maybe she wasn’t. But man she looked way way too young

I’m also f****** freaking out that I could have gotten either the young girl or the fat girl pregnant

It’s f****** crazy the fat girl basically raped me

But I think that’s what she wanted – somehow

I’m so fucked right now

I’ve got to spend the night in the airport alone. No money. No underwear. No credit card or phone

I’m
Just sitting on my laptop and writing this remorse note before I go to the airport bathroom and j******* to try to get my head straight

My wife is going to leave me if she ever finds out

And I’m almost certain she’ll leave me after I get fired

I’m so fucked right now