I am feeling a little guilty today. My husband was served divorce papers. For him it’s bad. I married him when I was 23, he was 26 and had just gotten out of the service. He said he was a mechanic. After we were married he told me he had a vasectomy so no need for birth control, no babies, he didn’t want them. He got fired time after time, he blamed PTSD, he was drunk when I got home.

Meanwhile at work I met a man. A professional engineer, PE. He also owned his house and had three nice townhomes he rented. He was nice, he treated me with respect. I came to work with a bruised arm, he decided that I wasn’t going back to my husband, he took me home with him. To a real house, he said he had most everything but no woman, did I want the job.

I filed for divorce, I really feel bad. I am pregnant, eight weeks I lay in bed with my hands on my tummy. I can’t help it. I am with a real man, who wants a wife, children, a home. But I still feel guilty.