I think about suicide daily. its not really suprising, im a closeted trans person, its a stereotype that i want to hop infront of a bus and obsess over

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I think about suicide daily. its not really suprising, im a closeted trans person, its a stereotype that i want to hop infront of a bus and obsess over the idea of ending it all. i sometimes self harm because it makes me feel good, i feel like such a pathetic edgelord saying that to be honest

the feeling would probably go away if i just came out, got help and lived the rest of my life, but im so scared of everything. i can barely go out without something covering me up without having a panic attack, how can i tell my parents about that, they would hate me. i would just hurt them by coming out, i would hurt my brother and my parents and my cousins, and grandparents. i constantly believe that i would be better off dead.

i wrote the note, all i have to do is, just, do it right? i dont enjoy anything other than playing video games anymore, i cant focus on work, and all my art comes out s***, this has been going on for forever now, might as well just take a bath with the toaster right XD.

im so selfish for even considering this, im too terrified to tell anyone about this, they all think im fine and stuff, even my therapist, but im too much of a stupi low life b**** to do anything about it. whatever

New Confession

It’s amazing how quickly Oppositional Defiant Disorder (ODD) is reversed by castration. The most defiant troublesome boys are quickly transformed by neutering. After a few days they become obedient and submissive.

De-balling also solves other problems like compulsive mast.urbation, lack of focus, back talking, fighting, brawling and other unacceptable behavior.

Veterinarians know that emasculation works well to make farm animals manageable. It works on boys as well. I think Nikki should finish the job which will give that boy a better life. Re: My Mother had me chipped.

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