I’ve been with My fiancee for almost 8 years. He’s great, good in bed, makes good money, kind, loving, all that, but he has no idea that I’m a complete emotional and s***** deviant, and it’s getting harder and harder to hide.

I have a friend we’ll call A. He’s sick in all the same ways I am. Loves to talk about the darkest, most fucked up fantasies. He gets me going so bad. We have been talking for a very, very long time but break every now and then, and then always go back to one another. We had a hot session the other day which resulted in him ejaculating.

I have another friend who we will call B. He’s a local celebrity who is well known. We have had multiple exchanges of nudes, talks of him gaping my a** and p****, and he loves to get off to pictures of my t***. He sends me video of himself ejaculating for me. He’s gorgeous, and will basically do anything for a peek at my t***.

I love my boyfriend, but I need these other men as well. In fact, it feels like I need them more lately, and I don’t know why. They both have girlfriends, so everything is real hushhush, and I wish I had someone full time like these two men.

Not even sure what I want from this.

Just to say it somewhere, I guess.

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