God dammit, I did it again. I really don’t like the p********** industry, and yet I partake in it once and a while… and I just did it again. It always leaves me with a feeling of guilt, disgust, depression, depleted dopamine levels, etc. It f****** s****. It feels good in the mean time, but boy, it it fleeting. I tried searching for apps that could connect me with people who wanted to have s** in the area. I’m in no place to get into a relationship, yet sometimes I want s**. So of course, this lead me to websites featruing naked women, and well.. there it goes. I signed up for AdultFreindFinder, and ended up masturbaiting to a live cam, and some of the images I saw on the website. And I f****** dry humped my bed too, jesus… People in my local area too, give or take. I wish all of those women well, and I hope they are able to find a way to support themselves without having to exploit their biology in that way. peace be with them. And peace be with me. Dammit. Thank you for this website.