These Cigarettes are killing me but I just really need them so bad I just can’t quit. I started smoking in 1996, I was so young. I was addicted

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These Cigarettes are killing me but I just really need them so bad I just can’t quit. I started smoking in 1996, I was so young. I was addicted immediately and hooked for life. I’m always coughing and wheezing, but I still need them. Two and a half packs a day. Sometimes three or more. I’m always coughing constantly. I spit up blood ever morning now. Now It’s hard to walk up even a single flight of stairs without stopping and gasping for air.. I don’t want my 13 year old daughter to get addicted to smoking like me… but she’s already started and I can’t stop her. I caught her smoking again the other day… third time this week…I couldn’t punish her because I was smoking and coughing up brown phlegm when I caught her… I’m just not going to fight with her about it anymore she’s made her decision..it’s too cold to smoke outside so I just smoke in my tiny apartment or car most of the time… I can’t got 20 minuets without needing another cigarette…. my ex hated my chain smoking and now I’m all alone because nobody wants to date a sick smoker who’s a single parent with a dead end job…I’m only 32 but I’ve been sick all year with a severe sinus infection that never goes away and only gets worse and worse… I cannot breathe out of my nose or smell anything anymore and I have a pounding headache constantly. My cough is getting a lot worse lately and aim scared I might have emphysema or lung cancer. I’m worried I won’t even make it to see her graduation … but I still can’t stop. I just need my cigarettes so badly

I’m smoking a cigarette as I write this and I’m crying because I’m too addicted to ever quit.

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