I have always loved my mother the most. But lately I have been lying to her about various things.I shopped without her knowledge, ate what I shouldn’t eat and did what I shouldn’t have done and the worst part is that I don’t even know why I’m doing so!
Today, all of a sudden I get a call from her and guess what… she found out about the lies I had said to her all these months. She was obviously hurt, upset and disappointed in me.She didn’t want to talk to me anymore and she didn’t feel like trusting me anymore.
I really don’t know why i’m so fucked up and how I ended up lying so much to my mother.

I had some kind of an unknown relief when I was doing everything that I’m normally not supposed to do without her knowledge. But the guilt of lying to her and losing her trust is killing me.

I’m embarrassed and ashamed of my mistakes and lies. What can I ever do to make her think that I’m not really that bad of a person.
I’m asking for forgiveness from you ( yes.. the one who is reading) because I feel your positive energy would travel somehow and someday help me in rebuilding my relation with my mother. So… please forgive me for I have sinned.

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