I realised that at this point in my life I want nothing to do with people with mental illness. The only reason being that I have been deeply hurt by my two closest friends (one of them was my first love) with serious mental illness since I was 12. I tried everything within my power to help and to continue loving them despite the years of torment they brought me. But in the end one of them committed suicide, and the other one betrayed me for no reason. The whole experience is just too traumatising and I have serious trust issues until today. I am 20 and in Uni now and I sincerely hope to meet more optimistic, sweet people who can make me feel happy again. I feel really guilty about distancing myself from other coursemates who have mental issues, but I don’t think I have a choice. Honestly, I think maybe even I have undiagnosed mental illness now.
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I have a mental illness and I have gotten hurt 3 times. One was my first love. I am a cis woman and my girlfriend broke my heart after two years of us. SHe had depression anxiety. The other one was my best friend. She had multiple personality disorder so it was just a mess. I feel like I can’t trust myself with simple decisions.
I’m really sorry to hear this and thank you for sharing your story with me. It is really sad that we never know how many trials there are ahead in our lives. Nevertheless I still believe that one day I will find my happiness, and all these things happened will only make me stronger. I wish the same for you.