My daughter is now 35. Her father is a boy I went to school with and we got heavy after school and I got pregnant. My parents chose to move rather than pay the social price of having me pregnant in high school. My daughter was born and I put up with the shaming but kept my daughter and I managed to complete an education and support myself (I was 27 when I managed to get out on my own). I am doing all right. The guilt I have is that my daughter does not know who her father is, and her father does not know about her. I found him, he is married with a family and appears to be successful and all. I confess to have taken a trip to where he lives and having spied on him. I spied on his wife. I am trying to stay away. I am consume with feelings, some I am sure are guilt others are obsession. I am scared that I will step over the line and do something stupid. I have my life and he has his life, my daughter has hers.
