I am married for 18 years and I have a son of 16 years. After 6 years of marriage I found that my wife is having illicit relationship with two different people. To cover her guilt she blamed that I am having extramarital which is not true. In anger and grief I tried to commit suicide thrice by taking sleeping pills but failed and recovered in ICU. Now I have a general aversion for straight s** and feel more inclined to g****** and have had a couple of gay experience. I also dream of having a submissive B*** experience by a dominant merciless man. I have changed. This is guilt but I cannot help it. I am doomed.