I think I’m only with my current boyfriend so that I don’t have to be alone. To have someone, just-there.
Once when I was little, my father held me down while my brother the undertaker cut my throat and wrists, they buried me alive. On Halloween night I dug myself out of my own grave and buried my brother alive, after I set my own father on fire. Thats where my love of fire, pain and suffering started.
Demon Kane
Talk anout regretting on top of guilt. Ex wife was worried about what was going on after she sthpidly started trying to xontact the s** ciach/coordinator to f*** her again. She was burning me up with texts and calls. I finally told her the short form of what happened punitively and she at first sisnt seem to care. All she wantes to talk about waa him f****** her again. Welcome to the latest reason this is all so toxic. That while i had arranged it the whole mess was going to make it where i have no s***** outlet at all and only my body had paid the price for her obsession about this man f****** her again. That at least caught her attention. I tols her the bruises will take days or over a week to fade and j was still in serious pain. She kept asking and i told her i was not going to send her video she would have to aee wgat i meant in person. Conflicting for me because of pain anger and motive and pretty sure ahe only wants to see the video for the kick of it. Atm i could care if she comes over or sees it or i end up celibate bc of her.
