I’m married and love my husband. But I’ve been having a fair. And to top that off I am now seeking excitement from a third person and have ‘ended’ the affair. I don’t know wtf is wrong with me or why I’m so self destructive. I’m actually not a narcissist and I don’t know why I keep effing up my own happiness. I know at the start my husband used to get with a lot of other girls when I thought we e were exclusive so perhaps it planted a seed early on. Who knows
